100 Challenge - Day 35

Intention
Being Appreciative, Precious and Generous

Today
I'm looking at planning a vacation get away with my cousin I found this Luxury Villa Rental service through the betsey johnson website. I realized this morning that I am out of touch with my foundation. This could also mean I'm out of touch with my source. My creator. My home and space reflects it. Its a mess. It is reflected in my finances. I have spent way beyond my budget. I have not looked at my balance in weeks and I have been spending. What I want to clean up with in myself is that happened. I got paid and thought there was a bigger balance to start with. I assumed a balance and spent money from that imaginary balance. Today when I looked I was shocked about the balance. The impact is that I have an important check that may be returned and if there is something unpredictable that happened this week I may not be able to take advantage of it. Who I was being was careless, disconnected, and entitled. What I see is creating being appreciative and precious. Like that would take a lot right now because all I want to do is beat myself up for making such a big mistake. So I could also invent being generous. Right away I feel the need to clean up my area.

I was going to Ikea tonight to get some boxes to organize my stamps but now I will wait until the weekend. What I will do in the next few days is write out what I need and get exactly what I need trying not to act so much on impulse.

10:33 am
I can see one of my noble qualities is out. Attraction / Abundance/ Energy / Power when its out I try to buy myself things to feel better or make me attractive...clothing, body creams, fragrances, things for my home to be nice. I am attracting peacock feathers. Peacock medicine is about wholeness (an integration of your many attributes without an undue focus on what appears to be missing). Peacock medicine remind us to focus on what is, and to appreciate what we have. True beauty comes from within. The peacock is also associated with the idea of resurrection in India, China, Egypt, Greece, and also in Christianity. It is the bird closest in description to the mythical Phoenix, which rises, reborn, from the flames and ashes of its funeral pyre. The cycle of birth, death, and resurrection is in itself a whole. Thus, peacock medicine relates to an appreciation of all aspects of this cycle, and also to the faith that we never truly die.
We can also work with peacock medicine to make us aware that one may experience resurrection within a single lifetime. By being committed to our personal transformation we can shed the old and drab feathers of the past and claim our the true beauty of our individual natures. This really speaks to me to shed the old and drab feathers of the past and to claim the true beauty of my individual nature. It will help meenhance my confidence and self-esteem and my deepest beauty and power. Ultimately feeling whole within myself. The question to explore is where am I not whole and accepting of myselfand what do I need to create that?

I am clearly being asked to teach again. I have not taught for years. I found this place on line that is near where my parents live and I met the owner of this book store while in Glastonbury. Hmmm.

3:22pm
I was reading about Saint Germain...not sure how I found the information but I saw that there is a meditation that clears negative energies called the violet flame. I have been purchasing soap like crazy and not sure why..well know I see why...

The violet flame works a little like soap. Soap gets dirt out of your
clothes by using the positive and negative charges of atoms. It works
because each of its molecules has two sides-a side that is attracted to dirt
and a side that is attracted to water. The dirt-loving side attracts the
dirt, like a magnet attracts paper clips when it is dragged through a box of
them. The water-loving side sticks to the water, carrying the dirt with it.

Interesting righ?